The Wrong Person

I am married for 5 years now some people would think that it is all happiness but to tell you the truth it isnt i have been miserable for quiete a while now my husband doesnt even touch me and he just is very cold he travels alot well we both do and we do not see each other very often so you would think we would be very happy to see each other but my marriage has just turned into a routine i cook i clean i watch the kids when i am in town when i am not my mother takes care of them. We do the same type of work and it seems he doesn't do anything it seems i have to do everything When we make love if you can call it that we dont do anything special I even have to fantasize about something else in order to be able to have an orgasm. I have tried to speak to him about the situation that has been going on between us but that isn't the worst part the worst is that i have been working with my brother-ib-law for the past four years and it seems that we have grown real close. A while back there has been a very strong attraction between us both and well we ended up sleeping toghether i feel horrible and so does he but it already happened the worst it happened about 6 times i did not remember what it was like to have sex the way we did to feel wanted to have somebody tell you everything that he told me the way he made me feel and still makes me feel when i am beside him he told me this could not go on and even after that we still had sex twice more he mentioned that if my husband was a stranger to him he would not care but it is his brother i did not think that i woul develope any feelings towards him in fact i dont know what i feel but i do know that i want to keep seeing him eventhough i am wrong Oh Lord please help me i feel the worst person ever and to top it off i cannot be with this man ever again Forgive me god for i have sinned........